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-->Sep 30, fri 2005
7:48 pm /iBook/ I'm not gonna be able to go to Brianna's Content Party now. :( I'm too broke. Fucking Event & Promotions, the company that hired me to do spokes model work is killing me with their not paying on time shit. I still haven't gotten paid from my Baltimore Ravens/Verizon Wireless work in August. I only been working w/ them 2 months and BOTH damn months they have been over a week late with mailing my money. Checks are supposed to go out the 15th of every month. My shit went out on the 19th in Aug and this month it went out on the 28th! I've decided I won't accept any assignments from them except the 1-10 of every month. That way I get my money in about 2 weeks if they are late. No more waiting a month to get paid, fuck them.

-->Sept 19, sun 2005
11:02 pm /iBook/ This one is just paralyzing I'm straight up numb. Even though I told myself a long time ago she'd stab me in the back I kept letting her into my life. She already broke into my e-mail but I listened to the "I promise I won't do it again." I listened to the "I would never trash you, I'd never do that to you," speeches and hoped against all hope. I closed my eyes so I wouldn't see it coming. I blinded myself. Fuck man, am I a dummy or just the age old 'fool in love'? I think both.

I saw the set up signs I knew exactly how it was going to come, nice and public to embarrass and intimidate me. Just like a girl she picks the method that makes her look dumb and degrades her, not me. She posted in my group and the group I swing with taking a shot at my dick size and unsatisfying sex. Then tops it off with a sex offer to other guys.

When will women learn?

You make videos with me, post all over the net saying how you love and support me. No one is gonna buy that up until now you've been faking it all? And how do u embarrass me by fucking a bunch of my pals. They are getting my leftovers and you are the one they are fucking, not me.

Man I was drama free for a good long time.